Ear/Head/Body Attack 2012: Paranoia

Today, it's nearing a month since I had my ear/head issues, and I'm a bit alarmed. The issues have still not resolved itself and even physiotherapy seems to miss the target. I used to have some back/neck complaints followed by a tired feeling and a unreal form of headache as the cherry on top. Now it has evolved to a constant feeling of pressure around my head. It doesn't seem to go away.

I feel really glitchy and zoned out at the moment. My body is feeling weak as my muscles hurt (various limbs) and sometimes tingle for no apparent reason. I caught myself staring at my hands with horror as they kept lightly  vibrating. I'm unable to hold them still, same goes for my head.

As I'm typing this, my hands noticeably have trouble keeping up. They feel more and more tired with every keyboard move. I'm also experiencing a very curious feeling in my legs, especially the right one. It's in a constant state of growth, so it seems.

These symptoms don't seem to go away on there own, so reason enough to be frightened. I'm visiting my doctor on Thursday, so I hope I have some more answers by then.  I keep labeling it as an extreme form of  over-tiredness, since my sleep has been horrible these past couple of years. Maybe it's a form of stress, it wouldn't want to rule that out.

I'm actually a bit  happy to go to the doctor soon, because waiting in a state of confusion and desperate guessing is even worse than the actual verdict itself, I believe. The least thing I must do, is looking for answers on the internet. The things that I find there are absolutely horrifying. I really need a medical opinion right now. The guessing it too much to bare anymore...

Please let it be stress.

Ear Attack 2012: Change Of State

After a week of using those damned ear drips and physiotherapy, my complaints are severely lessening! I stopped having neck and shoulder issues and even better: my hearing is fine again! I was worried sick that it might be a form of hearing damage. I started focusing on weird noises that could be experienced as a loud hissing noise (most common with hearing damage) and I was constantly in panic of my situation. I stopped listening to music for almost a week!

Now, after a doctor visit and some physiotherapy, I feel so much better! I carefully started listening to music again and even when "Midas" came on, I didn't experience what I last had when listening to that track. When I was certain that my hearing was fine again, I even started listening to some TATW. At that particular show, they played the second track of the three track Soundprank EP. The track is called "Change Of State", and I think it is fitting to my situation! 

I can only hope that I'm completely fine again after a few weeks, since I still have several physiotherapist appointments and a second doctor-checkup. We'll see. But for now, my state has indeed changed to something more positive! Let's keep it that way.